The Reasons

Many times, I run into personal comments of friends that revolve around them not reading this blog, mainly because I sound too vague in my entries.

I am known to be a person who has a reason for everything... well, almost. Which is a big cause to not pick any argument with me as I will provide any form of excuse for every bit of my actions... which boils down to me being a headstrong person.

Coming back to my vagueness in most entries, I ascertain myself as not being comfortable enough to provide the details of my life in this public domain. I'd prefer keeping my opinions as objective as possible (that does not apply to soccer anyway) and stay away from divulging too much of personal emotions.

Blame it on bad experiences. In the world of blogging, you can't win everyone's hearts; this is what you call yin and yang. For every positivity, there is the negativity to deal with.

In other words, dealing with judgements that are unjustifiable was what I have hoped to avoid with my current style of writing.

I stay away from penning down my love life. Being both a heartbreaker and getting my heart broken are enough for myself to handle. But of course, musings about the past is inevitable; its the only way to keep myself sane after everything I have gone through.

I am going to give an exception this time. I'll provide the brief reasons of the existence of my "Strike-off List".

• I would hope to not date anymore ex-schoolmates. This is highlighted by the fact that any guy from my batch would know about an infamous past relationship of mine due to an ex-boyfriend who hailed from every school I went to.

• I would hope to not date anyone who supports other teams than Liverpool. Being an ultra-sensitive maniac about my favourite team, I hate being taunted at for supporting the "worst team in the BPL", or so, in their own words.

• I would hope to not date a guy who is shorter than 1.7m tall. It isn't about being superficial about not being able to wear my heels but I do feel extremely awkward if he isn't taller than my younger sister. By the way, sister is all of 1.69m (figures rounded down) and hence my yardstick of 1.7m.

These main 3 items of my "Strike-off List" have been provided with some kind of leeway, of course, if the guy's worth it. :p

I know I sound like a diva with these demands but I just can't seem to help it. Sorry.

Another big part of my life revolves around my friends. Maybe I've attracted some negativity that feel my friends can be too good to be true, or I just exaggerate the truths behind our friendships.

The truth of how I've maintained my undying friendship with these few people is that I simply managed to keep the backstabbers and hypocrites off my back over the years. Yes, dealing with these people isn't exactly the rosiest thing of my life and I was driven to many corners at times by their actions. But looking at the positive impact, I know whom to keep out of my inner circle. I don't really die without them, in fact, my life goes on better without them. So, what's the point of keeping them, right?

I would not deny that I have made some undesirable relationships in the process, what not, with my ever-so-upfront comments. You can partly blame my dad in passing those genes to me; I say out my displeasure the moment I get agitated with something.

Yesterday, a close friend suggested I should write a book. Its tempting but like I've said before, I am not blessed with divulging too much of my life. Even if its fiction, I am not equipped with the art of spinning tales like some backstabbers.

Yet, I hold a dream of writing a column in some magazine, hence my pen name being Ryu Arashi. That is the biggest reason for my style of writing. I wish to be like Carrie Bradshaw, except you won't read about any sexual experiences like hers.

ANYONE GOT LOBANG???